Well, here we are, 14 days into the start of a new year. I normally try never to make a huge list of resolutions because you all know that I just hate setting myself up for failure. That, and it's my own way of figuratively wearing a really big bulky sweater (more life oversized blanket) to disguise (hide) the over-fluffy that has become my fluffy. Seriously people, I happened to glance in the closet mirror last night as I stooped on the bed folding laundry and had to swallow back the vomit that filled my mouth in reaction to my own reflection. I have a huge affection for Reitmans-wear, and I had started to joke with myself that my size is fine til "I can't fit into the plus-size Reitmans-wear". I think I'm upon an epiphany here...one, seeing my own reflection that I try to avoid mostly, and two, fearing that I won't fit into the new-still-tags-on jeans from Reitmans that were 'slightly snug' when I bought them undoubtedly many pounds ago. *sigh*. So, the eggnog is probably now bad in the fridge. Most of the Christmas chocolate has been eaten (I did have a little help, but, I'm still not proud). It's time to start cutting back on the crap again and start to get my heart pumping (and I mean for a longer interval than reaching the top of the stairs at work). I may or may not blog about it. But, I gotta get a handle on it. Til then, this shall still be my motto for the new year that is upon us:
Number one priority, fluffy or not, is to spend the next 12 months trying to be as happy as I possibly can. So far, since just after Christmas, I've learned of 5 deaths...all close enough in proximity that I know loved ones of each family. Another one is expected, as the person has just been admitted into palliative care recently. In addition, I've learned of 1 marriage break-up and 1 on the cusp. These sad statistics break my heart and make me feel sick inside. Hey Universe, you can stop any time, ya hear?
Happiness isn't a guarantee, and life truly is a gift. I'm going to try to give it my all. Why don't ya'll join me? Let's kick 2012 in the ass...
